brothers.

It was nice growing up with someone like you - someone to lean on, someone to count on... someone to tell on! ~Author Unknown

Romans 6:10-11

I've been reading in Romans and this morning I was in Chapter 6 and these verses {11,12} really struck me....

" For the death he died he died to sin, once for all, but the life he lives he lives to God. So YOU must consider yourselves dead to sin and alive to God IN Christ Jesus."

I don't know about you but I sometimes expect these huge epiphanies when i'm reading the word...not everyday, but every now and then. I'm finding {and learning} that is things we might have seen or heard over and over can suddenly hit you differently as

Jesus died for our sins! AMEN!! HOWEVER he DEFEATED not only sin but death as well! WHOA.

In verse 11 it says we "...must consider yourselves dead to sin..." as in the power and command that sin has had in our lives has been broken, because of Gods grace and work on the cross.
The grasp of sin in our lives has been broken!
THANK YOU JESUS!

What a joy!
What a relief!
What a comfort!

How wonderful are his mercies? New EVERY morning. {Lam. 2:22,23}
So that we, his children can overcome and conquer sin.
We are made ALIVE in him. All we need to do is come before him on our hands and knees.
Beg him for mercy, for help that we might overcome our ugly, sinful, heart desires and instead run to him.

TO LIVE for HIM.

wow.

That's why I think preaching the gosepel to yourslef daily is so helpful. Your mind is on him, on the prize which is ETERNAL life with HIM!

What a gift.
I pray I may be more dilligent in living my life FOR Him.

A good friend who is going through A LOT of tough stuff right now, sent me this song this morning{here are some of the lyrics:

Mikeschair - Let the Waters Rise

God You know where I’ve been
And You were there with me then
You were faithful before You’ll be faithful again
I’m holding Your hand

There's a raging sea
Right in front of me
Wants to pull me in
Bring me to my knees

So let the waters rise
If You want them to
I will follow You
I will follow You

God Your love is enough
You will pull me through
I’m holding onto You
God Your love is enough
I will follow You
I will follow You

soccer 2009.

We've begun extra-circulars in this casa, and this fall Maxwell played soccer.
He loved being on the team, he had some great teammates and Max was a pretty good player if I say so myself.


Evan SO wished he was on the field. He did enjoy the games...and especially enjoyed the post- game snack. Snacks crack me up. At this age the kids look more forward to the snacks more than the actual game!

Liam cheering on his big brother...and giving me a look.


These three were a POWERHOUSE. That girl...Jaycee...was INCREDIBLE. She was so aggressive and got right in there with the best of 'em...I was quite impressed with that little lady. The boy behind Max was Johann...he was a quick little fella...complete with rat tail. He doesn't speak a LICK of English but he sure is a sweet boy.

Breakaway that let to a gggggooooooooooaaaalllll!!!

team picture {with a couple kiddos missing}

A fun season!

Katie's recipe swap.

Katie is looking for some good recipes, so I thought I'd join in on the fun...


ROCKIN Mac and Cheese {this ain't Kraft Mac and Cheese...and I have NO idea where I got this recipe...but it's a favorite at our house.}

image- southern living.com

I'm telling you... this stuff is UH-MAZING.

Ingredients:

1 lb. elbow macaroni
3 tbsp. butter
4 tbsp. all-purpose flour
1 c. milk {room temp.}
4 c. shredded cheese (cheddar, mozzarella, colby jack, or whatever you like!)
salt, black pepper, and fresh nutmeg
10 oz. box of frozen pureed squash

Cook the pasta in boiling, WELL SALTED water like the box says, probably eight or nine minutes. While it cooks, make the cheese sauce.
Melt the butter in a large saucepan over low heat. Add the flour, and stir it like crazy with a whisk.
Whisk that together until your mixture turns a golden color.
Add the milk, and whisk like crazy again.
Don't burn your sauce!
Lower the heat and season the sauce with a couple of good pinches of salt and a little pepper and nutmeg.
Now it's time to add the cheese.
Just stir the cheese in until it melts. Taste the sauce to see if it tastes good, and it should! Add the defrosted squash to the mixture and make sure it's all well mixed.
Then add the cooked, drained pasta to the sauce in a large bowl or the pot you cooked the pasta in. Stir it together, and pour it into a casserole dish.
Bake it for about 20 minutes at 350 degrees until it's a little brown on top.


Chicken Enchiladas {Mad Hungry, Feeding men and boys- Lucinda Quinn...I just got this book and LOVE it !}
- this is good with or without the salad on top.

image- allrecipies.com

ingredients:

green sauce-
1/2 white onion, chopped
2 garlic coves, unpeeled
2 jalapeno chili's, stems removed
14 whole tomatillos, peeled and simmered in water for 5 min.
1/4 cup unsalted roasted peanuts
2 tablespoons coarse salt
1/2 cup chicken broth

{OR if you don't want to or to save time you can buy green ench. sauce....just make sure it is made with tomatillos...tastes MUCH better}

enchiladas:
1 tbsp. veg oil. + 2 teas. for salad
3 cups of green sauce
12 corn tortillas
4 cups shredded chicken {I used a rotisserie chicken}
7 oz. Monterrey jack or queso fresco cheese
3-4 cups romaine lettuce
6 radishes trimmed and sliced
1 tbsp. white vinegar
salt/pepper

{to make sauce}
preheat broiler. place onion, garlic and chilies on baking sheet. cook for 4 min. discard garlic skin. Place onion, garlic and chilies in blender with tomatillos, peanuts, salt and broth. Blend until smooth.

PRE-heat oven to 375.

Heat a saucepan to medium high and add tablespoon of oil. Add green sauce and cook a bit to thicken it up.
One by one dip in tortillas and place in 9x13 fill with some chicken {I add a little cheese too}
and roll 'er up.
Fit each ench. snugly next to the other in the dish.
Pour remaining green sauce over enchiladas.
Sprinkle Cheese on top.
Bake for 15 minutes, or until sauce is bubbling and the enchiladas are heated through.

While ench. cook toss lettuce and radishes with 2 teas. oil, vinegar, salt and pepper. Layer salad on top of hot ench. and serve immediately.

Vegetable Lasagna {What can I say? I heart Martha.}
image- marthastewart.com


Ingredients:

4 cups (32 ounces) whole-milk ricotta cheese
2 large eggs
Salt and fresh ground pepper
2 packages (10 ounces each) frozen chopped spinach, thawed and squeezed to remove excess moisture
1 cup shredded carrots {I added this...it's not in the orig. recipe}
6 cups store-bought or homemade tomato sauce
12 no-boil lasagna noodles (8 ounces)
1 pound fontina cheese (4 cups), shredded
Directions
1.Preheat oven to 400 degrees. In a medium bowl, whisk together ricotta cheese, eggs, 1/2 teaspoon salt, and 1/4 teaspoon pepper. Add spinach, and stir well to combine.
2.Spread a small bit of tomato sauce in the bottom of a 9-by-13-inch glass baking dish or dishes. Arrange a layer of lasagna noodles on top. Spread 1/3 of the ricotta mixture over the noodles, followed by 1/3 of the remaining sauce; sprinkle with 1/3 of the grated cheese. Repeat to make two more layers, ending with cheese. If freezing, cover tightly with plastic wrap. Before baking, defrost in the refrigerator overnight.
3.Cover with aluminum foil. Bake 30 minutes. Remove foil; continue baking until top is golden brown, about 15 minutes more. Let cool slightly before serving.

Taco Lasagna { from my mother-in-law}
image-bigoven.com
ingredients:
1 lb. ground beef
1 packet taco seas.
4 cups salsa
1 31 oz. can refried beans
6- 9 inch tortillas { I've used corn and flour}
3 cups Mexican cheese mix

brown meat and drain. Add taco seas, and 2/3 c. water.
Add salsa.
layer 9x13 with 1/3 meat sauce.
cover with 2 tortillas.
layer with another 1/3 of meat sauce and 1 c. cheese.
cover with 2 tortillas
spread can of refried beans on this layer, and 1 c. of cheese over beans.
layer last 2 tortillas.
cover with the last of the meat, and cheese

bake at 350 for 30 minutes.

Meatballs for spaghetti { from our friend Dana Conley}


ingredients

2 eggs
1 cup dry Italian bread crumbs
2 T finely chopped onions
2 T grated parm. cheese
1 teas. salt
1/2 teas. pepper
1/2 teas. garlic powder
1/2 teas. Italian seas.
1.5 lbs. ground beef
.5 lb. of ground pork

combine all ingredients well. {using your hands works best!}
shape into 1 " balls and place unto ungreased {rimmed} baking sheet

bake at 350 for 20-25 minutes

serve with sauce and pasta. YUM!

Greek potatoes { from my Mom..a GREAT side dish or good served with some good veggies}
image-greekfood.com
1 med. onion, chopped
1/2 teas. oregano
1 chopped garlic clove
1 tbsp. oil
salt/pepper
1 8 oz can tomato sauce
1 teas. each of thyme, basil, and rosemary.
16 oz. can of chicken broth.
5lbs. potatoes

Saute onion, oregano and garlic in oil. Add all other ingredients besides potatoes and broth.
Peel and cut potatoes into wedges.
Arrange into a 9x13.
Add broth to sauce and bring to a boil.
Pour over potatoes and bake at 450 for 45 minutes or until potatoes are tender.

last week.

These two...

can get into a whole heap of trouble together. Did I mention Addie is a month OLDER than Liam? He's a monster!! I had 5 kids one day last week! Well only 4 about half the time as Max was at school...but I have to admit that it's true what they say... after you go from two to three, anything after that is like piece of cake...or something like that. {Megan you TOLD ME SO!} And so with 4 kids 3 and under I made bread.


Look. I've never been much of an artist, but for my first attempt at baguettes I think they look cool{ish}. While my dough rested and rose this was going on...


Evan was in charge since Max was still at school and the younger three soaked up every ounce of energy Evan had to offer. They were pretty fun to watch at ages 3, 2,1, and 11 months.

It was quite the afternoon of children...and bread....oh, and pumpkin muffins.



But back to the bread.


This bread is SO easy and I highly recommend the book I got the recipe from.

DOUGH: Simple, Contemporary Bread {by, Richard Bertinet}

I'm TELLING you, if I can do it, you can too.

It is so incredibly easy and even I, yes lil' ol' me can make some tasty, yummy, and {sometimes} stellar looking bread.

It's good stuff.

the dr. & bakugan dan.

I think Dr. suits the L-man pretty nicely.



Evan was this Bakugan character...even though neither of us really have a clue what Bakugan is.
He also called the trick-or-treaters "customers"

poor Max wasn't feeling so hot on Saturday, so I didn't get any pictures of him in his Power Rangers get-up. He did inform me he would like some photographic evidence that he was, indeed the Red Power Ranger.

boo.

Being Real 2.0, and finding the real me.

Someone whom I love and respect very much, asks me {nearly every time I see him} what am I going to do with my life?

I know, in his eyes being a Mom and all is nice, but what was I going to DO with my life? How was I going to contribute to society. He and his wife are VERY successful in life, and have the money to show for it.

I get it. What was my mission in life?

In this day and age with so many working Moms, and woman doing more than they ever have, being a stay at home mom seems, well, like it isn't enough.

There are plenty of Mom's out there who do work and have kids. WE {as in Justin and I} have decided that it is important to us for me to be home with our kids. He makes plenty of money for us to live comfortably so I am able to do that.

There are times, amidst spit-up, spills, and laundry piles that I wonder, how this can be it for me? That the majority of my life is filled with cleaning, running errands, disciplining and teaching children, and other various tasks.

Sure, I know, I know, Oprah has mentioned several times that Mothers have the hardest job in the world, and the audience cheers in agreement. I can't help but wonder if inside, she is really thinking how thankful she is she isn't a stay at home Mom.

When I got married, I QUICKLY realized that I couldn't be as selfish as I once was. I was not joined with this man, and we were ONE. Yikes!

I think so many marriages fail mostly out of pure selfishness, and that one or both spouses have no interest in being "bossed around" by the other and they are not going to change or make sacrifice for another person!

Then, when children enter the scene, you have to become even LESS selfish and sacrifice so much more. FREEDOM becomes much more limited as you are now responsible for another LIFE!

All these changes got me to thinking about who I am. I've been married over seven years now, and we have three young boys. How did I get here, and we did "I" go? I mean, I don't know exactly where I DID see myself, or who "I" was supposed to be,but it didn't seem like this was it.

How was I supposed to find any part of who I was when it seems all my time is given to my husband,kids, and others? Who am I?!

A few weeks ago we had a guest speaker, Peter Hubbard, at our church who talked about our mission in life.

He told a story about how he was waiting for his wife at the mall and he asked several people who happened to come sit where he was if they knew what their purpose in life was.

As he talked about one girl who was confident in her purpose to become a teacher and tell people about Jesus. Another middle aged man had no clue, but the majority of people really hadn't thought about it much and just gave general answers you might expect. To have a good job, enjoy family and friends and be successful and contributing to society in some way.

As I read Marian's article over at Ungrind this week, it really hit home. I thought back to that sermon a few weeks ago. I thought about my mission in life. How authentic was I being in that?
It seems like I have everything backwards. I'm being real with girlfriends and leaving my husband wondering what was going on inside my head. He often comments that he can't read my mind, so why do I so often expect him to?

What was my life mission, and if someone came up to me today and asked, how would I respond?

Pastor Hubbard gave us a list to use as guidelines as we look at ourselves, our real mission in lives. He encouraged us to ask someone close to us to ask these questions of ourselves. It's not a check-list, to check off and say, YES! I must be saved! But, rather to indicate that you are part of the people of God.

Here are a few:
Do you see evidences that I am saved?
In the way I am honest about who I am and what I do?

Do you hear my confess my sins? Do I repent?

How do I receive and give forgiveness?

Do you see my trusting in Christ as my only hope for righteousness?

Am I intentionally building relationships with the lost?

Do I worry too much about how others perceive me?

Am I using my time and {our} money wisely?

Do you see me moving from things that use to bind me?

What better person to ask than my husband who sees me everyday, in the good,the bad {and ugly} am I living authentically for Christ? Am I on the mission for Jesus Christ?

As I define my authentic self, who I want to really be, it really is simple, and that is OK.
I am a sinner saved by grace, and I pray that during this short life here on earth I will be as Marion desires and describes in her article.

"Authenticity, let it flow. Let it be real and raw and full of God."

May that be my life mission....FULL of GOD, on mission for Jesus Christ no matter where I am or what I am doing.

"Keep your conduct among the Gentiles honorable, so that when they speak against you as evildoers, they may see your good deeds and glorify God on the day of visitation." 1 Peter 2:12

keeping it real.

I can't STAND it when people are fake with me.

I once knew someone that I didn't see all that often, but when I did I got that over the top, fake bubbly attitude, and plastered on smile. I could never figure out who she really was underneath all her words.

I've thought about it though---that while I might not be a complete fake with people, I might not be as real as I can be with people.
What I mean is on a personal level am I willing to admit my faults? Can I'd admit I can be weak and weary? Do I ask for prayer and help with my struggles?
Not enough.
In the past few years, my best friend and I who are now separated by hundreds of miles have been better at being more genuine with one another. Being more open and honest than we ever before---even when we lived together in college. We have worked through some hard things together. Things that needed to be revealed to each other so we could help each other and heal, to point each other to Christ.
I've only recently realized the need to be more authentic, more real with the people I see most. It's been three years since we torn up our roots in Wisconsin and moved to Kentucky, and in those short three years Justin and I have met some amazing, lifelong friends. We have been so blessed to find and become members of an amazing church body.
A church plant, and still relatively small, we have a group of amazingly tight knit people who genuinely love and care for one other. The display of love from friends who are excited and passionate about Christ has shown me that I can be more open and transparent with them.
It has been so rewarding and encouraging to be able to humble myself, and confess my struggles, my weaknesses, my pains.
The articles this month over at Ungrind have been so encouraging to read as I see these woman struggle as I have. As I think about who I am, what I want to be.

"An authentic, godly woman -- from the depths of me -- this is what I long to
be. And I want to struggle well to become this. I'm thankful that God is
continuing to show me more and more about the healing He wants to give me, most
of all, in my relationship with Him.
As Tim Keller says, "all of life is
repentance." So if that's the case, and I believe it is, then confession must
happen all the time to God and to the people he has put in our lives."

Like Samantha talks about in her article, An Uptown Confession I too hope I can become a more authentic and godly woman as I swallow my pride and become more honest, transparent, and real with others.

Brian Regan- Dinner Party

love Brian. :)

field of day-dreams

I know I've been slacking on actually writing on this blog. It's been crazy around here.
More actual words to come...

L-man

It's hard to believe in under 2 short months he will be 1!
He has recently started giving these looks to people, one of which is this cheesy smile. It's priceless. I hope I can get it on camera sometime.
I love this kid.

a few randoms about me.

My married last name is WAY easier than my maiden name...I always said I would marry someone with an easy last name...and I SURE did!

I hate being pregnant...but don't mind labor. If I could skip the nine months, and just do the labor and delievery I would....heck I'd do it twice. Not that I've had easier labors!

I hate tomatoes, but not salsa.

I hate anything from the sea, except tuna.

I also hate mushrooms, they are a fungus...and that's just gross.

I'm really bad a dusting...like REALLY bad...there are a number of things in our house that have NEVER been dusted. *GASP*

I wish I was REALLY (like amazingly talented, out of this world, knock your socks off) good at something.

I love Jesus. A wonderful, MERCIFUL savior, and I have so much to learn about him.

I love people, getting to know them, but I think I could be a better listener.

I'm a huge procrastinator, but LOVE the pressure to get things done.

Justin and I are almost complete opposites, and I love it. We balance each other well. He and I have so much fun together. I heart him.

My dream is to own my own shop someday.

I love that I'm 50% polish.

Our {as in Justin & I} dream is to flip houses together.

Every guy I went to a dance with in high-school is now gay.

I love laughing...love it.

I LOVE being sarcastic...and appreciate people who take it well, and dish it back.

I was very nervous about moving about 500 away from where we grew up. It was one of the best decisons we've ever made. {of course we still miss seeing family and friends as often as we'd like}

I LOVE to cook.

I love a clean kitchen.

I want to get better at decorating cookies and cupcakes... just for fun.

I want to be a better wife, mother, daughter, sister, and friend.

Most of all I hope I can bring honor, glory to God. Find joy each day in him alone.

Growing in Faith and Trust.

Do you worry?
" Worry and fear will ROB you of the Joy and fruitfullness of trusting in God."- Mike Bullmore.



My cousin sent me this message from a Women's talk this past weekend.
I want to ENCOURAGE you to listen to this message from Mike Bullmore, pastor at Crossway Church in Bristol, WI where some of my family goes to church. About 45 minutes, it's worth the listen.

09.24.2009

forest boys. 9.24.2009, originally uploaded by olives on a monday.

I only got a few shots here, it was rainy, wet, and muddy, but I do LOVE this one.

L-man

ready to run.

thanks for the picture Ron!

some of our team: Paul, Anthony, me, Jamie Helton, Alexis, Carrie and Alison.

On Saturday I ran my first ever real race.

A 5k.

And, I lived.


No hospital stays required, no need for oxygen tank...though I did almost throw up on a police officer standing just past the finish line. That would have been a story...and a HUGE embarrassment.

It was POURING rain when I met my friend Jaime at Starbucks to head downtown together.

We parked and headed down to the Courthouse grounds where we were meeting up with the rest of our team, named by our "coach" Alexis, team "Wii not fit."

We were SOAKED by the time we got there. My yellow rain coat proved useless as well as my camera which had a dead battery. NICE.

Regardless, we were all happy to see one another, ready to start the race. The race we all committed to for our dear friend Alexis. Alexis who showed up in the rain, after enduring chemo just two days before with her umbrella in hand ready to cheer us on.

I love that girl.

I also love Ron & Carole {who are like another set of Grandparents to all the children in our church} who appreared out of nowhere, to also cheer us on!

So, the race began. It was a mess...but Jamie and I were off to a decent start. Soon we heard the police force behind us, chanting motivational cheers, enough to keep us all going. At about the halfway mark we passed by a huge crowd of spectators, Alexis among them cheering us on...we kept going. Just before the two mile mark I got a second{ish} wind and as I turned the corner unto main street, saw the finish line and didn't stop.

My friend Jamie and I had a goal to finish within a half hour and I finished just past the half hour mark and Jamie not far behind.

I loathe running. I don't get it. I don't get the fun, enjoyment that so many people find in it. But on Saturday friends, I felt a small enjoyment in running. As Jamie and I walked back to the car, wrung out our socks and headed home we talked about doing it again, so glad we had committed to and finished the race.

After a cup of coffee, I hopped into one of the best showers of my life, and I began thinking about my friend Alexis, how much pain she has had to endure, how brave she is, how much of an encouragement she is to me.

I thought about my commitment to Christ. thought about how often I lose heart, giving in to the world too often.
I thought about Paul who in 2 Corinthians talks about not losing heart, about the treasure we have in the knowledge of the glory of God.

" So we DO NOT lose heart. Though our outer self is wasting away,
our inner self is being renewed day by day. For this light
momentary affliction is preparing for us an eternal weight
of glory BEYOND all comparison.." -2 Corinthians 4:16,17

While the mild pains I endured during the race are nothing compared to what people deal with every day, there were several times during the race where I just wanted to give up, completely. To not care if I finished in an hour, or at all. I pressed on, and when I crossed that finish line the pain was all forgotten. There was joy. Of course this joy was not even comparable to the "glory beyond all comparison" Paul talks about, but it was a WONDERFUL reminder to me of that great ETERNAL reward.

I pray I continue to run toward Christ. That I embrace hardship, press on, and "look no to things that are seen, but to the things that are unseen. For the things that are seen are transient, but the things that are unseen are eternal." -2 Corinthians 4:18

on babies. Part {dos} 2.

If you recall, we are contemplating having a forth {and most definitely our last} child.
As we have three boys, we will most likely be going for the forth...hoping for a girl, rejoicing if it is another boy.

OH, MERCY.
As I mentioned in "on babies. part 1.", the arrival of our firstborn was quite complicated and exhausted.
However, as most parents, we seem to forget the sleepless nights and constant attention and care newborns need, and have another.
We had 2 more.
I will say it did get easier with each one, even though the number of children I had to take care of was larger in number, the newborn stage each time was less painful.

The thing about babies is,
THEY CHANGE YOUR LIFE FOREVER.

I don't mean this in a bad way, but your life forever changes when you have children.

I'm thankful we waited a couple of years to have kids. Time for just me and him. Once the kids roll around, it becomes all of us. NOT that that is a bad thing, it's just a lot different.

I won't lie, I miss being selfish, doing whatever I wanted, whenever I wanted. Your freedom DOES become more limited when kids enter the scene...just the way it is. I also miss it being just Justin and I. We don't have as much time alone, and "date nights" are much less frequent.

There are things that having kids has done for me that makes me a better person.
Things like:
1. GROWTH in my relationship with Christ.
2. Realizing HOW selfish I was. Not that I'm not selfish anymore, but parenting does require sacrifice.
3. Growth in my relationship with Justin. Even though our relationship has shifted and changed, I have a GREATER love for him. Recently we have had some amazing conversations and I've never felt more connected to or in love with my husband.
Seeing him as a Father is amazing too.
4. A NEW appreciation for MY parents. My Dad {who was still in medical school when I was born} and my Mom who stayed home with me and my 3 younger brothers, they are two of the hardest workers I know. We did so much fun stuff growing up, much of which I'm sure we complained about most of the time, but now I appreciate all they did for us.
5. The joy of laughing, playing and enjoying our boys.

So, while having babies forever changes your life, it is the best thing that can ever happen to you. At times you ask yourself what you were thinking having kids, and there will be times you want to rip your hair out.
But, when your sitting at Panera, having lunch like you did so many times with co-workers, friends, and your husband. Surrounded by students with laptops, businesspeople with newspapers and friends meeting for lunch, you look at your three {well behaved...this time} sons when your 3 year old son looks at you and says;
"Mom, Panera is my best."
"Mine too, Evan. Mine too."

It's nice to have the young company who can appreciate good food as much as you do. :)

on babies. part 1.

I'll never forget how we found out we were pregnant with our firstborn, Maxwell. It was just after Thanksgiving. Being just over a week late for my cycle I thought we might as well take a pregnancy test. We weren't trying to get pregnant, but we weren't trying not to.

I SWEAR I followed the instructions...waited the full five minutes and all, so I tossed the negative test into the trash can. I went into the kitchen to make dinner and I hear Justin call me into the bathroom.

"Uh, you're pregnant."

"No, I'm not."

"Yes you are. LOOK."

Sure enough TWO lines stared back at me.

"WHAT?!!!" We both repeated over and over again...followed by lots of laughter and tears of joy.

Nine months, two weeks overdue, and 60 lbs later I was at the hospital being induced. Long story short, after 38 hours of labor and not much progression, Maxwell was born via c-section weighing in at a whopping 10lbs. 1oz.

I was EXHAUSTED to say the least.

{AND, lets just say I have destroyed about EVERY picture I had of myself at the end of the pregnancy and right after I had him. I saved one...just to have, but seriously people when our friend Chad Kemp burst out in laughter not believing the picture was really me I knew most of them had to BURN. It had to be done...oh, and if any of you have any pictures I expect them to be sent to me PROMPTLY}

I'm not sure if we had it more difficult than the normal first time parents, but our first few weeks, were awful. We shed a lot of tears and we were NOT prepared for all that. Mostly I think we were suffering from exhaustion, but it all was a lot for us to take in at the time.

I cannot EXPRESS enough how THANKFUL I was {am} for my Mother-in-law and Mother who took turns staying with us. They were both SO helpful, wise, and allowed us to rest. I honestly think I would have given up on breastfeeding if my Mother-in-law wasn't there to encourage me. My Mom cooked and kept our house in order so I didn't lose my mind. I don't think we would have coped very well without their help.


If you know me at all, it is no secret that I DO NOT enjoy pregnancy. I know it is kind of selfish, many woman have not or will not experience what it is like to have a baby growing inside them, and for that I AM thankful. It is just hard time for me, growing so large and I have yet to have a child under 8 1/2 lbs.

Pregnancy isn't my thing, and it SURE doesn't look good on me.

All that said however, we ponder the idea of #4.

I am happy with three. 3 boys.

I won't lie, I'd LOVE a daughter. Justin LONGS for a daughter. I keep telling him that we for SURE will have that 4th boy. Not that we'd really care, but I can tell you that I am NOT having 5 kids.

It is not completely out of the question, but the very thought of being pregnant again well, is NOT appealing to me. Losing the post-pregnancy weight the third go round has proven DIFFICULT. I'm not like EVERY OTHER WOMAN I KNOW who looks FABULOUS a week after giving birth.

Babies, even though A LOT of work ARE a blast. Liam is in my favorite age...anywhere from five to eighteen months. GOLDEN. I love that time. I've REALLY been soaking it up with him because I know now, how quickly it really does pass...and soon they are starting their first day of school!

SIGH.

So, who knows what is in store for us?
God does know.
That rocks...and that will do for now.

I'm usually not to big on kids CD's, pretty cheesy and annoying. While at first listen this CD seems pretty irritating with little kids singing along with an adult leader, as I listened closer to the words, I was hooked. There is SO MUCH TRASH music out there, and while we don't exclusively listen to "christian" music we are more carefully guarding what we DO listen to. This CD is a great way to teach kids about Jesus and how we should long to live like him. These lyrics really ring so true, even for me and I've found myself reflecting on them this week, and to wait on God instead of just plowing forward on my own.


"Loving’s harder than it seems
Show me, Lord, what patience means

Wait, wait, gotta wait, wait, gotta wait
When it’s hard to, but You say to
Wait, wait, gotta wait, wait, gotta wait
For the right time, Your time, not mine
Wait, wait, gotta wait, wait, gotta wait
For my brothers, sisters, and others
Wait, wait, gotta wait, wait, gotta wait
‘Cause I want to be more like You
Jesus, You will always be
Patient, gently teaching me
I see in You what I want to be."

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zucchini!!!

Zucchini.
Ah, yes. LOVE.
Danielle has a GREAT and very tasty recipe over at her place.
Being that I had an overabundance of zucchini, I made Zucchini cupcakes.

My Mom sent me this recipe from who else? Martha.
SO easy.
SO yummy.

recipe

Ingredients :
1 1/2 cups all-purpose flour (spooned and leveled)
1 cup packed dark-brown sugar
2 teaspoons baking powder
1/2 teaspoon ground cinnamon
1/2 teaspoon salt
1/2 cup coarsely chopped pecans or walnuts
1 zucchini (10 ounces), coarsely grated (1 1/2 cups)
1/3 cup vegetable oil
2 large eggs, lightly beaten
1/2 teaspoon pure vanilla extract
Cream cheese frosting (recipe below)

Directions:
1.Preheat oven to 350 degrees. Line cups of a standard (12-cup) muffin tin with paper or foil liners. Set aside.

2.In a medium bowl, mix together flour, brown sugar, baking powder, cinnamon, and salt. Mix in nuts.

3.In another bowl, combine zucchini, oil, eggs, and vanilla; add to flour mixture, and mix just until combined (do not overmix).

4.Divide batter evenly among cups. Bake until a toothpick inserted in the center of a cupcake comes out clean, 40 to 45 minutes.

5.Cool in tin on a wire rack for 10 minutes; turn cupcakes out, right side up, and cool completely. Meanwhile, make frosting. Using an offset spatula or butter knife, spread frosting on cupcakes.

Cream cheese frosting:
4 tablespoons room-temperature unsalted butter
4 ounces room-temperature bar cream cheese
2 cups confectioners' sugar
1/2 teaspoon pure vanilla extract

Directions:
In a medium bowl, with an electric mixer, beat butter and cream cheese until smooth. Add confectioners' sugar and vanilla extract; beat until light and fluffy. Refrigerate until ready to use, up to 1 day



I got these adorable cupcake boxes for a steal at Michael's. I love them.



They are great for making your creations look fabulous.



Just add your own little touches and wallah! A fun little gift for friends.

letter time.

My dear King of the Toilet Paper,

This is the first time I've ever written, because to be perfectly honest I'd never seen the need.
However, I've seen the need and I have responded!
First I'd like to address the issue of what kind of toilet paper is best overall. One that satisfies all kinds, shapes and sizes of bums. One that is of appropriate price, and of course easily assessed. This is a question I ask you to answer, because I have yet to discover the conclusion.
What fanny wipe is the best?
Granted I have not tried and tested them all, but I've learned some things along the way...or which toliet papers NOT to use.

Sand Paper toliet paper. Otherwse known as Scotts. Oh yeah, that stuff is brutal. Perhaps fine for short, infrequent use, but for anyone spending any length of time on the toliet the stuff is pretty comprarable to sand paper...and NOT cheap I might add. A kabillion dollars for four rolls of sand paper seems a bit ridiculous, and it is.

I refuse, R-E-F-U-S-E to use toliet paper used by Bears! Oh, you know what I'm talking about, CHARMIN!!! What is with those Bears? Bears don't use toliet paper!! Even if they did, why must a bear have the finest toliet paper available? They live in a forest for crying out loud! Furthermore, why are there bits of it sticking to thier bottom ALL OF THE TIME?! Also, would it KILL them to find a local stream to WASH THIER hands in...

I've resorted to buying what is on sale, or just looks like it will get the job done. I need some recommnedations, and would like to settle down and stick with one brand of toliet paper for the fannys that enter our home. It would be greatly appreciated to have your top three list.

Thank you in advance.

sincerely,
A-money Swanson

ps- If you could work on the bear hand washing situation at the very least, it would be much appreciated by many I am sure.

Friends Who Sharpen.

By Anne Swanson

A couple of years ago I missed the wedding of Angie, one of my best friends from high school. Angie was heartbroken. And I felt awful that I wasn't there to celebrate with her.

Sure, there was the excuse that we now lived hundreds of miles away from one another, but I could have found a way to be there, if I'd really wanted to. The truth is, blowing off friends had become somewhat of a pattern for me. I'd been doing for months.
Read on here...